Pre-travel Anxiety

I can't believe that I will be leaving for Berlin in about a week. I leave January 7th to be exact. Now that it's a week away, I think that I am more prone to procrastinate. I guess I just feel like I want to prolong my time at home as long as possible and delay all my thoughts of leaving home for about four months. I haven't started packing. I haven't even decided on what to do about getting a rail pass. It's not that I'm not responsible about my trip, it's just that I don't want to actually sit down and do all the things that needs to be done for me to leave.

I guess a good place to start would be to create a list: Bring out suitcases, find adapters and converters, photocopy passport, buy mini Bible and other spiritually uplifting material (Europe is religiously dead after all), wash clothes, etc etc.... I'm finding that getting started is the hardest part.

I need to give more of this situation over to God and allow myself to trust the Lord with my plans and packing. I'm anxious about leaving my family, friends, and Paul. I try to hide that everything is going to be fine but I know that loneliness while abroad will consume me. That's where I need prayers. Last semester the Lord taught me what it means to trust that He will provide for my life. I struggled with loneliness again this semester, especially since Kate decided not to come back to Mason. But God provided.... abundantly!! The Cru community at Mason is such a blessing to my life and continually uplifts and encourages me. That's another big part that will be missing while I'm gone in Germany.

But God shows me that He will take care of me. Now all I need to do is pray. Oh.... and pack.